Change can often be an unexpected thing. We may experience the loss of a loved one, a change in careers, or maybe just a shift in perspective.
The last 13 days have been nothing but complete change. I would venture to say that I am not the same person anymore, and what I have been going through probably marks the beginning of me truly turning from a boy into a man.
First, I realized I don’t fully know who I am yet. I’ve spent the last few years thinking I knew what I was going to have in my future. However, I have learned that I cannot plan the way I was before. I have learned that I cannot control everything or everyone in my life. The only thing I can control is myself and the way I view the world.
I have made some good choices in my life, many which have led me to my current success as a designer and a developer. I have grown and continued to strengthen my skills in these areas, and I can thank my God given passion to create for that.
With that, I have also made some bad choices. Choices that have made a lot of things very clear in my life, more clear than life has ever been before. I’m currently dealing with some consequences of said bad choices, but in a way, I’m thankful for the experiences. I don’t think things would have become so clear so quickly without them.
I mentioned that I’m not the same person anymore. That might sound pretty unrealistic to you. Even when you meet me in person, you might think I’m the same.
At my core, I’m still a person who loves to create and build things. It doesn’t quite matter what it is I’m creating or building – I simply enjoy the act of crafting something.
Beyond that though, I honestly don’t believe anything about me is the same. I’m more thankful for each and every day. I went out for a walk in Nashville today and have never appreciated the Sun or the sky like I have today. I’m a logical and rational person, and yet I’m more aware of my emotions than ever before.
On top of this shift in perspective, there have also been changes in my current work situation. These changes have made me decide that freelancing is the best option for me at the moment. I am confident in my skills and abilities, and am looking forward to (hopefully) choosing what projects I take on.
Building brochureware WordPress themes / websites (Home, About, Services, Contact, etc.) just doesn’t cut it for me. I want to work with companies and clients who truly value their brand, and who value what it is I can offer them as a designer or developer. I want to work with a business who needs a website.
“It’s 2014, doesn’t everyone need a website?” you may ask. Of course! But now that the market is flooded with everyone who “needs” a website, there are a lot of people who just don’t value what it is I do. Those of you who do value a designer or developer, we can chat.
Life is kind of crappy right now, but don’t feel bad, because I know I’m on a journey. I now realize that we never truly finish discovering ourselves. It’s something we’ll continue to do until we move beyond this life. Even though aspects of my life suck right now, I’m looking forward to the things God can teach me.
I am more open to new ideas and new ways of doing things. I am making new friends, and learning from those who have more experience than myself. I can say that I am truly humbled – something I thought I was before.
Change, while it can suck, can also be a really good thing. I know I will be smarter and stronger than ever before, and for that, I am extremely grateful.